Anger is a good expression

I am hiding it from everybody, i am angry for not growing, and i am blaming people not to help me grow. The truth is, i am not showing it, even typing it now knowing someone will read it doesn't matter how many, i am automatically trying to polish my words and hide inner self again. Yes, i am this fake person, always try to bring the best of me in front of people. To express, to learn to feel is the no one lesson i have to learn. That may be will also help me with my fashion career.