Having a bit work issues.
I love my job and co workers. However; this constant unfair emotions has eaten me up all the time. I compare my skills and what I do for the company to what I get paid. I felt big gap there. To the outside, I am the fashion designer, can make design any stuff overnight. But my skills do get paid by my clients. To the company , I am still the sales girl they hire who does a good job in selling plus sewing skills. Therefore. All my skills would be an asset for me to do a good job but not a trade for extra money. Compare my clients paid me, free work is no longer feed my needs. Indeed, I absolutely need the company right now for a daily job that makes me happy . So I have to compromise.
I have designed for clients consistently in order to gain sales. The easy design work can be produced by me with a great financial opportunity,but they rather give to seamstress who doesn't understand anything to do the work. In the end , the job was terrible and seamstress needs to ask me all the time. But I have nothing in return except 40 dollar commission for selling the dress.
Perhaps the company has vision I don't have;perhaps my skills and confidence gained over years within the company ; perhaps I am lack of ability to earn trust or business respect from management.
Perhaps it's called "pain of growing" .
